~Our 2 Year Anniversary~
Mood:  lucky
Now Playing: Nothing...just peace and quiet!
Topic: Life In General
Its only been 2 years. But its been a very long 2 years. Will and I have been through so much together, honestly, i'm suprised we made it this far. But you know, its those hard times, that get you to the point where we are today. I love him so much, and we know just how far to push one another. Its funny how often we just laugh things off. Saturday was our anniversary. We had such a good time. My Mom kept Mia, and we just had an evening to ourselves, which was way past due. We just sat around, talked, cuddled, and had some amazing sex. I'm talking about the kind of sex you have when you first get together...yea, you know what i'm talking about. I couldn't ask for a better friend, lover, father of my child, and soon to be husband. He has his flaws, as we all do. But to me, hes my prince. No one could replace him, nor come near it. Off to bed now, with a smile on my face, and love in my heart...and him next to me, till morning.

My Heart Revealed
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Magic Melody (DHT)
Topic: Life In General

"When I saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew."
~William Shakespeare~

Our love wasn't the love of two strangers. Actually, we had known each other, for years. But for us to be together was near impossible. Never were our feelings to be known for others would not approve. But you can only hold in love for so long. Then you have to let it free.

William is the love of my life. He makes my heart skip a beat with every touch, kiss, and longing look. Our eyes can speak to each other in ways no one else's can. So whats the catch? We are complete opposites.

I wont go into why it took so long for us to be together, thats our personal story. But the first night that we were alone, no one else existed. It was only us. The chemistry was there, the excitement, the lust. Oh yes, the lust. Other than love, the best feeling in the world. I could feel his beautiful eyes undressing me. And it felt so amazing. I couldn't wait till the night I felt his hands on my body.

Not the first night, but very soon after, we made love for the first time, after so many years of dreaming of it. And no dream ever came close to what we had that night. It was known that very night, that our love would only grow stronger from that moment. And that it did.

I cant imagine myself with another. Its been 2 years now, and I love him more everyday. I didn't know it was possible to love this strong. Before him, I didn't love myself this strong. He's opened my eyes to so many different worlds. He's showed me how to look at things in a more understanding manner. There isn't enough words in the dictionary to even begin to express my love.

Now, to join in on our love, is Mia Caroline. Our 8 month old daughter. Shes full of happiness, grace, and love. She brings us joy each and everday.

There was no real reason for this entry, other than I want to let the world know how happy this man has made me. I love you MonkeyButt!

Letting It All Go
Mood:  not sure
Topic: Life In General

My first blog. I'm new at this, so bear with me. Its been one hell of a day. At 20 years old, I am sitting home everyday with an 8 month old, who I love dearly. Shes the best thing that has ever happened to me. On top of that, I have been taking care of my soon to be husbands other 2 boys, ages 3&6. These two little boys are wide open. So is my 8month old daughter. I'm not complaining about it. It comes along with the package. Its just 3 years ago, I never would have imagined myself here, in this moment.

I use to be one of the biggest party gals out there. No worries, no cares. Just party party party. And its like, over night, everything changed. I started seeing Will (another entry on how we met) and one thing lead to another. It was wonderful. Then, heres a little baby. Thats also another entry.

Right now, I'm just trying to see how all this happened. I sit home now, everyday, and take care of Mia (my baby)and everyother weekend, the boys.
This week though, we have had them all week long. I'm just not use to kids. I am learning right along with my baby. So yes, its very hectic.

Time seems to fly by so quickly. And then, you look back on the things you did in your past, and wish you could just go back. I can remember hearing my family tell me so many times that I needed to settle down, do good in school, dont do this, dont do that...to me it didnt mean anything but BS. WOW was I wrong. I use to think I knew everything and anything. I've had a lot of experiences in my lifetime being as young as I am. A lot more than some older than I. And I still know I dont know everything, and probably never will.

So there you have it. I can only promise that the more I write, the more saga of my life will be reveialed. Its just bad I have to wait till 2am to get the time, and peace, to sit and do it. Till next time...cherish every moment...even while on the crapper!